Embracing my tankini body

If you’re a loyal reader of my blog, you’ll know that for the last couple of years I’ve been working hard to lose weight and feel more comfortable in my own skin. It’s been a HUGE deal for me. I can vividly remember looking at my post-baby body a couple of years ago in the mirror before our family holiday to Turkey and actually hating the way I looked. I had really big wobbly bits, no real shape for a plus-size woman and I just felt really uncomfortable in pretty much everything I wore. I wanted to cover up in black shapeless clothes so that I didn’t stand out, to blend into a crowd. I didn’t feel very confident and I think it must have shown. I was really anxious as to what people thought of me and would be constantly worrying what people might have been saying as I walked past.

To buy a tankini or not?

Over the last two years, I’ve been able to drop four dress sizes with my weightloss and therefore my wardrobe has changed quite a bit. I knew for our holiday this year, I needed to buy a couple of new swimming cossies for the pool and fell in love with a two piece tankini from TU at Sainsburys. I did worry about what it might look like on but with a few days to go before my holiday and a lack of swimwear in the suitcase, I put it in the basket and promptly paid. Although I went up a size, the tankini fit really well. I felt really comfortable in it and I actually liked the reflection I had in the hotel bedroom mirror, what a shocker!

I wore this fabulous tankini on holiday and felt fab in it. I know, My boobs aren’t brilliant, my sausage arms are on display and I’ve caught the sun on my wobbly bits, but here’s a real Mum on holiday with her family, having the time of her life and no-one died!

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I felt rather liberated on holiday to walk around the pool in my tankini. To be honest, I felt really proud of how far I’ve come and held my head high when my husband got the camera out around the pool capturing the fun moments of our holiday.

I’ve always been quite open in front of our three year old Son with my body, I don’t want him to grow up thinking women have to be slim and wobble-free like the people he sees on television, in magazines and on posters. I want him to see a real woman, with wobbly bits and an imperfect tummy, enjoying herself and to know that it’s okay and normal, very normal.

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When I look at these photographs, I don’t see a fat wobbly Mum. I see a happy Mom enjoying the freezing cold pool in the sunshine with her little boy having so much fun in the water. I want to document that. I want to remember the moments when I feel proud of my achievements and how I was embracing my tankini body on holiday. Yes, I’m still overweight but working hard to reduce my wobbly bits for my own comfort and nobody else’s!

I’m proud of these smiles in these photographs, I’ve worked damned hard enough to get here!

Emma Shilton

Emma Shilton, is a UK Family Lifestyle blogger from the West Midlands, UK, Emma is Mummy to two boys; Olly, (born February 2013) who loves Lego, cars and old cartoons and Freddie, (born January 2018) who loves noisy toys and making a mess. The blog follows their adventures as they capture everyday life, family travels and adventures.

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  1. 22/06/2016 / 8:39 am

    LOVE it Emma! You have worked Damn hard and been an inspiration to many (including me!) on your weight loss journey. I’m glad you embrace all the wobbly bits – we all have them! You radiate happiness xx

  2. 22/06/2016 / 9:24 am

    And so you should be proud, you look absolutely amazing hun! You’ve come so far with your journey and its paying off so well. x

  3. 22/06/2016 / 9:57 am

    And you should be proud, you’ve done so well with your weight loss but more than that look how confident and happy you look, which is way more important. You also look gorgeous in that tankini!

    Glad you had such a fab holiday

    Stevie x

  4. 22/06/2016 / 10:07 am

    You look so carefree and amazing, really inspiring – well done and GOOD ON YOU! Promoting real bodies is the way forward! X

  5. 22/06/2016 / 10:30 am

    This made me quite emotional Em. You have come so far and I am so, so proud of you! x

  6. msedollyp
    22/06/2016 / 12:47 pm

    Those smiles say it all. You look amazing!

  7. 22/06/2016 / 2:03 pm

    You look fab! I will admit to feeling nervous about when it comes to putting my swim suit on in the summer. I really need to get back onto SW again. Well done on all that you have achieved! xx

  8. 22/06/2016 / 2:26 pm

    Fab post! Well done for coming so far! I felt a little teary reading this! I need to not worry too.
    Gorgeous tankani too. X

  9. 23/06/2016 / 2:20 pm

    Fab post. You’ve come such a long way! Lovely tankini xx

  10. 24/06/2016 / 9:33 pm

    Love this post! You look blooming amazing and so utterly happy in these photos. I hope that you had the most amazing holiday and enjoyed every second playing in the pool making special family memories. I hope that in a year or two I feel the same way you do too xx

  11. 26/06/2016 / 11:43 pm

    You look fabulous Emma. A happy, relaxed Mum enjoying a wonderful holiday with her boy. You’ve come such a long way, you’re a genuine inspiration xxx

  12. 28/06/2016 / 9:41 pm

    You look fab and happy Emma! No wonder you are proud and so you should be! Well done lovely x

  13. 29/06/2016 / 8:17 am

    And so you should be proud. You have done so well and you look fab! It’s so lovely to see you so happy and just enjoying your holiday. I never go swimming on holiday and I feel guilty every time but in October I’m just going to do it! X

  14. Toni
    02/07/2016 / 11:36 am

    Em, you have achieved so much and I’m incredibly proud of you for all you have so far.. Yes it’s a life style change not a diet and you are an inspiration to me..
    I can only dream to achieve what you have in a word jealous of you and your life.. Love you so much your annoying sister xxx

  15. 28/07/2016 / 10:44 pm

    Emma you have lost so much weight and are beautiful, you should be proud you look fantastic and are lovely. And there is nothing more beautiful than confidence and happiness and you are rocking it x

  16. Purlyqueen
    09/08/2016 / 12:49 pm

    You are an inspiration and looked amazing. Do you know what? I went out and bought that Sainsbury’s tankini the same week. And felt fab in it!

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