You only have a birthday once a year and this year I wanted to enjoy it. When November rolls around, I’m always a little thoughtful as it’s my birthday month that I shared with a school friend who sadly died just over 2 years ago. I always feel like I should be living life to the full as I’m still here and can embrace life whereas my friend will always be remembered as the bright sparkly 30 year old but cannot see her boys grow up and shape their futures which makes me a little sad.
This year, I turned 33 and I wanted to enjoy myself. A few days before my birthday I enjoyed a lovely home cooked dinner at my Parents house with a birthday cake for afters. On my actual birthday I enjoyed a day off plan and had lunch with my Mom and Olly at the pub (turns out it wasn’t very nice but I still ate it) and just this weekend, we went to London for the weekend for extended birthday celebrations and we ate at a Greek restaurant for dinner and it was delicious! I had Greek flatbread, hummus, grilled Halloumi and a Chicken Souvlaki wrap. It was just amazing. I may have also sampled some sparkling Cava and a small bowlful of Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough ice cream for afters which was just what I needed.
Last Tuesday I got weighed on my actual birthday. How brave (or stupid) is that? I gained 4.5lb which took me back under my five stone total loss but I wanted to step on the scales to face the music and draw a line. Ouch!
I’ll be weighing in again this evening to see how this week has faired. Apart from the meal on Saturday evening and the wine and ice cream, I’ve been on plan and have remained within my syns so who knows.
Now I’m ready to tackle the weight again. I’ve been yo-yoing up and down losing and gaining the same few pounds for over 9 months now and I’m getting a little bit bored. I need to see progress on the scales which is ridiculous given that a top I couldn’t fit into in July, now fits me perfectly so something must be changing even if it’s not the scales!
I’ve also been nominated as one of the finalists in the Miss Slinky awards in group. I’m really chuffed to have been nominated as I’m one of the only members to have lost so much weight and although that doesn’t guarantee me any prizes whatsoever, it’s nice to know I’ve been nominated by the members in our group who have recognised my achievements.
The only thing standing in my way over the next few weeks is my own motivation and determination. I’m desperate to keep the weight shifting and I need to keep my goal in mind. I don’t want the reason for us not being able to conceive another baby is that I’m too fat. Only I can make this change so I’ll be reminding myself that I can do it, I have done it and I need to continue doing it.