We’re halfway through the year already, how did that happen? It’s whizzing by and there seems to be so much going on that I feel slightly frazzled if I’m honest.
At the weekend we had our friends wedding up in Lancashire. It was a lovely, lovely day. The bride looked absolutely stunning and the groom looked very dapper. I was immensely proud to watch them both get married. I’ve been good friends with them both since we all started university back 13 years ago and I was so honoured to be asked to read a special verse for them during their ceremony.
My outfit was a big deal for me. I wanted to feel happy and confident and like me. I have been to weddings in the past and have wore terrible outfits that looking back I look so much older than my years!
The dress I wore was from Joe Browns and it is just a really lovely dress and it fits really well. It was probably a little shorter than I had expected but hey, I’m 33 not 73! I teamed the dress with a jacket with cropped sleeves from BHS and I loved the colour. Bright and colourful and tied in really well with the pops of pink flowers in my dress. To complete the look, I accessorised with a navy fascinator from BHS and green heels and a clutch bag both from Next again to match with the pops of colour in my dress.
I can’t tell you how good I felt in that outfit. It made me feel confident, I hoped it made me look good and showed off my weight loss progress of the last ten months. I didn’t lose the extra stone that I wanted to before the wedding, I think I lost 7lb but that half a stone is better than no stone at all and even if I had of lost that extra bit of weight, I would have still wore the dress. I was pleased that my make up looked alright too!
Having looked at my weight loss progress over the last couple of months, I’ve been a bit rubbish! I’ve been in the same stone bracket since the beginning of March and although I have been losing weight, I’ve been gaining some of it back too. I want to start again and have the losses I was having back in August and September of last year. I fear my old habits of picking here and there have wormed their way back in and I’m not writing down what I’m eating, the old ‘mind-nesia’ creeping back in and playing havoc with my willpower.
I still have a lot of weight left to lose. I’ve never stated how much weight I’ve had to lose before as I have been so ashamed of it. I still am. Those numbers on the scale terrify me but I am pleased to see them changing every so often in the right direction. There’s still around 5 stone that I want to shift and even that won’t fit me in the ‘normal’ range of the BMI scale but I want to get as close as I can to that target eventually.
I’m back on plan this week and determined to have a good week. There’s no events to knock me off plan (although we are out on Saturday but I can take my own lunch) and we have meals planned for the rest of the week which are all SW friendly. I need to remind myself of what I want from this diet and one sneaky piece of white bread here or that sneaky bite of Little Mr’s pizza there, all carry extra calories I just don’t need. From now on, I’m sticking to what I’m allowed to eat and desperately trying to get out of this stone bracket which is now another 6lb away after the gain this week.
It’s a funny old world blogging, sometimes you get amazing opportunities and others well being honest it can be a bit rubbish. Sometimes it seems like everyone is competing with each other and it’s hard not to get yourself caught up in the race. I’ve decided to step away from a lot of it now, it’s not giving me the joy it once did and I find that really sad. I saw a quote this morning that said ‘Never get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life’ and this has really resonated with me. I work four full days each week with Fridays at home with my Son. The weekend comes around and we love to spend time as a family doing something we enjoy and spending time with each other. Life is too short not to have fun!
If you saw my Facebook photo on Monday, you’ll see the mess that my wardrobe is in. Unfortunately I have let things slip and my whole house is a mess. It’s full of things we no longer need or use so I really need to be ruthless and get rid of stuff. I’ll be donating, recycling and selling stuff on ebay in a bid to calm my house and my mind. I feel so cluttered with it all and it’s stressing me out. I want to feel happy in my home and not stressed especially when life is already oh so stressful.
Little Mr is doing us proud every single day. His speech is incredible and his development is really amazing us. He’s such a character these days. Today he’s 28 months old and those 28 months really have been the best months of my life. I am going grey, I have bags under my eyes and more wrinkles than I care to admire in the mirror but life is good. He’s made our world complete and we are incredibly lucky.
Next week I’m off to London leaving the boys at home for weekend. It’s Britmums Live and I’m so excited to be seeing friends, familiar faces and meeting new friends. Thanks to ISA Holistic for their generous sponsorship, I’m staying for two nights at a hotel and get to starfish in a bed with breakfast made by someone other than myself or my husband. Feeling lucky! Will have to be good with the food though as I don’t want to be ruining any of my good work. No pastries or croissants for breakfast for me but can’t promise not to sample the free wine!
So June, it’s a busy month with adventure and change but we’re embracing it and all that it offers!