Four months ago, I stepped in to my local Slimming World class feeling fat, ugly and feeling like I’d lost my confidence in life. I felt awkward around people and worried that people didn’t want to associate or befriend me because of what I looked like. Four months on, although I’m still not as confident as I can be, I feel proud of what I have achieved. Four months on, it feels as if the ‘real’ Emma who has been hidden for such a long time in baggy tops, plus sized jeans and ugly bras is starting to emerge from the fog.
Tonight at weigh in, I gained for the first time in 21 weeks. I gained 4.5lbs and it hurt.
Following my last Christmas party with family on Saturday, I started Sunday on the new Extra Easy SP plan determined to limit the damage of 4 days off plan and three days on I am still 4.5lb heavier! Thank goodness I got straight back on track. I would have hated to see the damage of a whole week off plan!
To my delight, I achieved Slimmer of the Month for the FOURTH consecutive month. I am pretty pleased with that. I’ve said before it’s not about the certificates or the shiny stickers, it’s about recognising my own achievement and I’m happy with how I’ve done.
I have instagrammed all my meals since I started my SW journey and you can follow me here for meal inspiration and have a nosey at what I’m eating for breakfast, lunch and dinner. It’s a way of remaining accountable for my food choices and the support is incredible. I have found it really helpful and I love following other SW members for food ideas.
As we prepare to say good riddance to what has been a proper rubbish year for my family, I’m grateful and rather pleased with myself for walking in to that church hall 4 months ago and making the changes.
2015 will be MY year. I want to get as close to ‘target’ as I can. There’s a lot of weight between where I am now and where I want to be but I’m determined to get there. It might be slow but I hope it’ll be a steady loss like my previous 20 weeks on plan.
If you’re in any doubt whether you can change your eating habits in the new year, I promise you you can. Small changes can make a big difference. If you had said to me in August that I’d be seeing the year out, three stone lighter I would have laughed but here I am, going into 2015 3 stone lighter (give or take a couple of pound). I’m a dress size smaller and my determination and willpower cranked up to high. I’m hoping my confidence will shine through more in the new year but one thing that has never faulted is my self belief.
she believed she could, so she did
Who’s in for keeping me company on my journey in the new year? I’ll be pleased to have you along for the journey.
Wishing you all a very happy and healthy New Year. Make it your year to shine!