One of the main gripes I have with people knowing that I’m following a diet (in this case Slimming World) is that they instantly judge me. They look at my face, my hands and then my body, looking me up and down and then seem to make a snapshot judgment that I have lost weight because ‘it’s easier to lose weight when you’re fat’. It’s simple, you could be morbidly obese on the BMI scales, you start eating less and the weight just drops off you. I wish I could scream in their face and tell them it’s not that easy.
It’s a very sensitive subject if I’m honest. I’ve been overweight for as long as I can remember. Probably accelerated by a few shit years as a teenager trying to fit in and failing miserably with low self esteem and confidence. Those years I refer to were over 15 years ago but they still feel as raw as yesterday when I hear people talking about my weight and how easy it is to lose it. I feel like I have to put up the walls and defend myself. It’s not easy to lose weight. It’s bloody hard work at times, planning ahead and making the right decisions. Saying “no” to a chocolate biscuit or a meal out because you know you need to stay focused and on track. It’s not as easy as sewing your mouth up and going cold turkey on literally everything that tastes nice and has calories. I’m rambling but just need to get it off my chest that just because I have more than a few stone to lose, it’s easy to lose weight. That is so not the case (for me anyway!)
This week at Slimming World, I lost 1.5lb. I’ve now lost 23.5lb over 9 weeks and I’m starting to see differences in myself now. My legs are getting slimmer, as is my face and I feel less bloated. I don’t feel like my double chin is sitting on my chest anymore but I have a long way to go. I want to lose 3 stone in total by the new year so need to stay on track, plan our meals and make wise choices. I want to lose 19lb over the next 10 weeks so that’s 2lb per week minimum. Lots of hurdles to get over in the next couple of months but I’m going to try and get over them as best as I can.