The news is out. We’re expecting our much wanted second baby and I’m so excited, a little bit nervous but really looking forward to the rest of my pregnancy and beyond!
We found out we were expecting rather unexpectedly after a weekend away in early May. I had absolutely no idea and the thought of being pregnant didn’t even enter my mind. When you’ve been trying for a baby for what seems like forever and you’re a month away from having more appointments at the hospital for infertility, getting pregnant naturally was the last thing I thought about.
My period was late but I refused to get excited about the possibility of being pregnant. When you want something so much, you don’t really dare think so positively just in case you get your hopes up and then you get your period, again! It’s so frustrating and quite lonely feeling like your body is failing you and your family. Of course you blame yourself and it’s really hard to think positively.
The day before we found out I was pregnant, I began to think we could possibly be expecting. Typically, I had zero pregnancy tests in the house apart from those cheap internet test strips that were out of date and some ovulation tests. Last year, I was a bit obsessed with trying to find out when my ‘prime’ time was but it all got a bit stressful when the test sticks didn’t show any ovulation at all. Anyway, I used an ovulation test to see what would happen as I’d heard that it would show up positive with a smiley face if I was pregnant. Apparently there’s a similar hormone that shows up in both pregnancy tests and ovulation tests so I thought why not! To my surprise it came back with a big smiley face and I was like ‘Ohhhhh okay’. I took a couple of the internet cheapie tests and I could see the faintest line come up on them but again didn’t want to get my hopes up. Shilts was out all evening and with Olly in bed, I couldn’t go anywhere to buy any pregnancy tests so I had to wait.
The next day I woke up early and was lying awake in bed when Shilts woke up and I told him that I thought we might be pregnant. Being sensible, he didn’t get his hopes up either, we’ve been down this road before and then been disappointed by the appearance of my missing monthly. I went to work and in my lunch break practically ran in to Boots and bought £40 worth of pregnancy tests. Wow, I’d forgotten how expensive those tests can be. I bought First Response and ClearBlue pregnancy tests as those were the most reliable ones and dashed back to work for a wee.
Unromantically, I found out I was pregnant in the toilet at work. I rang Shilts and asked if he minded me taking the test without him being there and of course he didn’t mind so took the tests quickly, saw a couple of pink lines and then sat in shock for a couple of minutes. We had done it! I sent him a photograph ‘as evidence’ and we both had a nervous laugh together on the phone in shock! I then had to rush back into the office pretending nothing had happened which was so surreal!
Of course, I used all the pregnancy tests that week just to double and triple check we wasn’t making this up and even bought a couple of the ClearBlue digital tests just so we could see the words ‘Pregnant’ on them.
We were over the moon, we couldn’t really believe it was happening. Still to this day, I’m feeling very very lucky that we’ve fallen pregnant naturally. I’m pretty sure the tablets I was taking (Metformin for my PCOS) have helped us and this pregnancy is following in the same pattern as my previous pregnancy just five years and three weeks apart.
We can’t wait to watch our little peanut grow, my tummy swell and to feel those precious flutters and kicks all over again.
I’m not planning on writing a weekly pregnancy update but I’ve got lots more to share with you over the next few weeks including how the First Trimester has gone, telling Olly he’s going to be a big brother and my plans for 2018. It won’t be all baby related stuff on the blog but another chapter in our lives to share with you all.
You can read our announcement post here; Peanut is due January 2018.