I‘m joining in with The Ordinary Moments linky this year hosted by Katie and Donna as I wanted to post some of the ordinary moments in my life which sometimes are not the best, nothing to shout home about but they’re ordinary and very much part of my daily life and make up who I am!
There’s no new year, new me resolutions going down in a fresh unwritten diary for me this year. I realised quite a few years ago that my mindset doesn’t change just because a year does. There’s no automatic switch that enables me to be a stronger person who doesn’t care what people think or a more confident person who can take uncalculated risks and speak out more freely. Those things for me are progressive and as every year passes and I spend more time being a Mum, I’m learning more about myself and those around me.
However, in 2017, I’m going to be kinder to myself. I wrote a post on this yesterday and having read it back to myself, I’m certainly going to try to give myself more time and to do things that make me happier. I’m in a good place, I have a husband that I love very much, we have a beautiful, intelligent and cheeky little boy who can be a complete terror at times but he’s our terror. We have a lovely house that we’re going to redecorate this year and hopefully make some great changes to the house that will put us in a good position for our future. But sometimes that’s not enough. I worry about my ability to conceive another child, my friendships and my work. All things that really shouldn’t stop me sleeping well at night but they do.
Last year I put so much pressure on myself it was exhausting. I was desperate to fall pregnant with our second baby that when it didn’t happen month after month, I turned to food as a way of coping and when you’re dieting that’s not really the most clever way of handling it. So just before Christmas, we took the pressure off ourselves and I’ve felt much happier about it all. I doubt that a pregnancy will happen just because I’ve took my mind off it (a watched kettle and all that) but it feels better that I’m not cursing myself every time it doesn’t happen.
I spent quite a bit of time chasing and clinging onto something that wasn’t there last year and it didn’t make me feel very good at all. It’s upsetting but I need to put myself first. I’m not wasting time on people who don’t really care (as much as I hope they would) and don’t put the effort in. Life moves on and so do I. I don’t think it’s a reflection on me as a person, I’m a good friend, loyal and honest and need to remember that more often.
My work is an area of my life that I’m hoping to change over the next year. My passion really lies in digital and social media and I happen to think it’s one of my real strengths. I know what I can do well but at the same time, I am learning lots more about the behind the scenes, analytics and HTML. I absolutely love writing this blog and having the opportunities to work with some of the most amazing brands has been quite incredible. I haven’t quite worked out the logistics and finances of it all as yet because I haven’t been able to attract a wage that matches my current monthly salary so changes will need to be made but I’m hoping that any I do make will be for the better.
So lots of ordinary, everyday things that hopefully I can build on this year to really be kinder to myself going forward. Life is too short to be unhappy. But first, I need to book a hair appointment. Here’s to a kinder, happier 2017, one step at a time!