Our holidays are over. It’s back to work, back to the routine, back to eating properly and getting back on plan and to reality. I wrote a few weeks ago about trying to stay on plan throughout the summer with family days out, special occasions to celebrate and holidays to enjoy and whilst I have had an absolute blast and enjoyed every single minute of my summer, it’s time to shake off the relaxed attitude to eating and get back on track.
I went to weigh in on Tuesday evening totally dreading stepping on the scales. I knew I was going to have gained weight and I did. You can’t enjoy bottles of Pimms cider and white bread on a camping trip without putting weight on. I gained and it wasn’t pretty. My weight has creeped up into the next stone bracket and I’m not happy with that, at all. I know what I need to do and I know what I need to change. No more sneaking left overs from Olly’s plate, no more hands in the biscuit tin thinking it won’t matter, because it will.
Weight gain always makes me feel really negative about myself. It makes me feel fat, ugly, useless and unsuccessful and I can feel the negativity coming through. I feel unmotivated and not focused at all. I know I should be kinder to myself but it’s so hard to do. Old habits aren’t easy to change.
I also had a lovely surprise on Tuesday evening when I got to group. I had been nominated as one of three ladies for the ‘Woman of the Year’ award. I did not expect that at all! I had been nominated by other members of my group, I’m not sure who nominated me but I’m very grateful and really did appreciate the thought.
Going forward, I have my game face on. I’ve started a new food log / journal and I’m taking it one meal at a time trying to incorporate more speed foods into my meals and drinking plenty of water and squash, counting my syns and not eating foods outside of those.
Of course, there’s a reason why I need to lose weight and I’ll explain this more in another post but ultimately, if we want another baby, I need to lose weight. That’s my focus and I’m going for it. Just watch me!