The last three weeks on Slimming World have been, if I’m completely honest, a struggle. I don’t know what happened but the motivation to behave myself and eat on plan wasn’t really there. I was eating things I knew I shouldn’t have, not to the extent of ordering a family size pizza and extra sides, but biscuits, mini chocolates and crisps have all made their way into my mouth. I knew I shouldn’t have eaten them but I did.
Last night I gained on the scales for the third week in a row. I’ve only gained 3lb in those 3 weeks so I must have done something right somewhere but I’ve still gained when I am supposed to be losing it and that’s not really the way to go.
Enough is enough. I’ve scared myself into thinking I could be on the slippery slope back to where I came from but I can’t go back there. I’ve got so much more I want to experience and I can’t waste the experience of how far I’ve already come. I’ve kicked myself and had a good word and today I woke up with a renewed focus. I might have lost quite a bit of weight but I still have a long way to go. I still need to lose at least five stone to be remotely healthy so I can’t give up now. I really hope my little blip will spur me on to knuckle down and sort my head out.
I’ve been on plan today. I’ve counted my syns and I’ve drunk over 3 litres of water so keeping myself hydrated and rather full. I’m taking each day as it comes and hoping those days will turn into weeks and those will turn into successful losses.
I need to rebuild my strength and willpower. I can and I will.