Last week I was pretty gutted about only losing 0.5lb after a good week. Sometimes you can have a brilliant week food wise, make the right choices and stick to the plan and expect to see your efforts rewarded on the scales but it doesn’t always show. This was me last week.
This week, I’ve stuck to the plan and made sensible choices. I’ve mixed up my breakfasts to help ‘movement’ and tried to drink at least 2 litres of water a day. At weigh in tonight I lost 2lb which was what I wanted as it took my total weightloss to 28.5lb. That’s 2 stone and half a lb in 12 weeks. I’m delighted with that.
I still have a long way to go. I’ve still got a lot of weight to shift but I feel like I’m slowly chipping away at it. It’ll soon be Christmas and then the New Year and that’s another 8 or 9 weigh-ins to go that I can lose more weight. I want my 3 stone loss award by Christmas so I’m now on a mission to stick to the plan and get to where I want to be. I still have a wardrobe full of lovely clothes that are too small for me. This is motivation. I want to say goodbye to the fat lady clothes and hello to the trendier clothes with a smaller label.
It’s not all about the numbers. Aside from the cold that our whole family seemed to have had last week, I’m feeling so much healthier. I’m feeling slimmer (although I might not look it just yet) and that makes me feel a bit more confident. I wish I could explain to you how being a bigger person feels but I’m not sure I can put it in to words. I’ve felt worthless and ugly, I’ve become ‘used’ to people not talking to me because they don’t want to be seen talking to the ‘fat’ person. It’s normal for me to hide away at home as it’s easier. I don’t have to go out of my comfort zone and get embarrassed because of my size.
One HUGE step for me was going to the Slimming World group on my own 12 weeks ago. I knew no-one. Tonight as I got awarded Slimmer of the Week and Slimmer of the Month, I was pretty chuffed with myself. My fellow group members congratulated me and had asked me earlier in the meeting how I had got on. It’s hard being the newbie in a group of friends who have known each other for years but tonight I felt like I was warming to them.
I just want to put it out there that I am so grateful for all the support that everyone is giving me; whether its online or in the meeting. It’s really lonely at times but having someone like a Facebook post or reply to a tweet reassures me that someone out there does care.
She believed she could so she did.
This is me. I believe I can get there. It might take me a year, it might take me two but I’ll get there.