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Uh oh, I’ve been thinking..

Over the last few weeks I’ve done a lot of thinking about my shape and size and how leading a healthy lifestyle is helping me achieve certain results. I’ve also been thinking about how unhappy and obsessive leading such a healthy lifestyle dieting could potentially make me.

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Don’t get me wrong, I’ve enjoyed following the Weight Watchers plan over the last 18 months and have been quite successful on it to date. It has taught me that I was over eating and not getting enough fruit and veg on a daily basis. It also taught me that in order to lose weight I needed to get off my bum and do some exercise. Eating healthily alone just wasn’t going to cut it.

I’ve lost just under 5 stone since last January and now wear clothes a comfortable size 18 rather than a tight size 24. My confidence has emerged and flourished and I am now able to walk into a room full of strangers and interact with my head held high. I’m no longer ashamed to hide away and cover my body up in clothes suitable for a 50 year old. (I’m being really brave here by stating what size I am, I’m proud of who I am now and not worried that I’ll be judged by the size I used to be) I’m able to Zumba for a good hour, enjoy the workout and feel the benefits.

But in society, being a size 18 isn’t healthy. It still reflects a body shape that says I’m obese. Yes, I’m still overweight and probably always will be but do you know what? I’m happier now than I think I have ever been. I’m happy in the knowledge that I can do an hours exercise and feel energised after it. I’m happy knowing that my body shape is changing to reflect the progress I’ve made.

This isn’t the end of my dieting as I’ve still got a long way to go but my attitude towards it has definitely changed. It shouldn’t be competitive, it should be personal. It should suit my way of life and what I want in it. I want to be healthy and have a family, enjoy life and live to an age where I’ll be able to retire and enjoy myself and precious time with my family.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I want to enjoy life and stop obsessing over my weight on the scales on a regular basis. I am keen to continue my exercise and enjoy the benefits that it brings (toned arms and legs and tighter stomach muscles) I need to stop worrying that I haven’t lost a certain amount of weight each week and I need to start enjoying life more; saying yes to meeting up with friends for dinner and a drink instead of refusing as ‘I might not lose at weigh in’. How happy can someone be if they’re slimmer but have no friends or social life?

I have gone completely off track to what I was going to blog about and if you’re still reading this then I hope I haven’t totally lost you but I guess I’m just keen to re-focus on the real issues in life and stop worrying that I’m a pound or two heavier this week because I went out for dinner with a friend and enjoyed myself. {sig}

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6 Comments

  • Reply Linz M

    Great post Emma. It’s so easy to get obsessed over the number and easy to forget the reasons why you started this journey.

    You look amazing, you’ve come so far. If you’re happy and heathy then f*** what you should be or should weigh. Life is for living :) x

    07/07/2012 at 10:41 pm
    • Reply mrsshilts

      Thanks Linz xx

      09/07/2012 at 6:52 am
  • Reply Chelsea williams

    Well done you! you really do look fab! I aways feel over weight but I just dont have the drive like you! it takes so much determination you should be so proud x

    08/07/2012 at 5:51 pm
    • Reply mrsshilts

      Thank you so much, it’s been hard work but definitely worth it!

      09/07/2012 at 6:53 am
  • Reply Paul

    Sounds like the Way Forward Emma.
    If you’re happy then everything else clicks into place.
    You have done fab and look amazing x

    08/07/2012 at 11:40 pm
    • Reply mrsshilts

      Thanks Paul, it’s not the end of my weightloss at all but just the end of worrying on a weekly basis what the scales say! Life is too short & too precious x

      09/07/2012 at 6:55 am

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