Weigh in showed I’d stayed the same! Pissed off doesn’t even come close to how I felt last night.
How can you exercise every single day (Zumba x3, walking, running with C25k & Aqua splash) earning well over 40 activity points and still not lose an ounce? Yes I did have half a curry Friday night (shared with my Sister) but I had over half of my dailies left plus activity points and even taking my weeklies into consideration I didn’t use them all! Apologies to anyone who encountered my strop last night but after all that I (stupidly) thought I might actually see some sort of difference on the scales. My body obviously has other ideas.
After having a good whinge with my leader and friends last night I’m wondering if I’m putting too much pressure on myself to see a difference on the scales. I’ve done a load more exercise which if I’m honest I really do enjoy. I’m loving my new Zumba class, I’m actually enjoying the challenge of the C25k program and I’m seeing subtle differences in the shape of my body. My legs are looking slimmer and my tummy is looking less podgy!
I’m annoyed that there are certain people out there that are trying to compete with me and frankly, I’m not up for the competition. Excuse me for one moment but let me just get this off my chest!
“Just because I haven’t lost this week doesn’t mean I have been sitting on my bum all week doing diddly squat. I don’t care that you have reached the next certificate goal before me, if there was a competition in fitness, I’d beat you hands down. I might be heavier than you but I’m certainly a lot fitter!” Rant over..
I’m also worried that when I go to my next hospital appointment the Doctor is going to say I’ve not tried hard enough to lose more weight (I’ve only lost 11lb in 6 months which is quite frankly, rubbish!) and I’ll crumble again. I don’t want to be a crying wimp in there again. This weight loss and fertility lark is seriously bad for your mental health!
I’m not a quitter so definitely won’t give up, I’ve come too far and have too many people looking at me to stop this fight. I want to do well and I want to win.
So the new WW week is upon me, I have 6 and a half days until I face the scales again and 6 days to make a difference. This week I’ll continue with my Zumba (just one class as Bank Holiday closure) and use the Wii, I’ve got week 2 of C25k to start and complete and the dog needs walking each night. I’m not going to touch my weeklies but eat my activity points instead if I need them. I might save them up for my Chicken Chow Mein on Saturday (it’s my nephews 4th birthday so we’re having take out in celebration) and a slice of birthday cake!
Thank you to all the lovelies on Twitter who have offered me advice, motivation and encouragement. I really do appreciate it and it really does help.
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Operation dress continues..
My friend’s wedding is in 2 weeks and you all know how much I wanted this dress to fit me for the occasion. Well, yesterday before I went to my nephew’s 4th birthday party, I tried it on.
IT ZIPS UP!!! {insert enormous grin here}
I cannot tell you how excited I was that it actually does up. It’s still a little tight and there’s not much room for
breathingeating or drinking yet but I have two weeks to make a difference. I really hope that in two weeks time it fits well and the way I want it too. I have ordered a pair of nude court shoes and handbag to match and have also ordered a bow type accessory for my hair. Not sure what to wear on top of the dress as it’s a bit nippy with the weather at the moment so am on the look out for a cardigan or pashmina type wrap to keep me warm. All in all I’m very excited that it looks like I’ll be able to wear the dress and feel brilliant for getting into it. There will be lots of photographs on the day. So exciting!I started week 2 of the C25k on Friday after work and it was tough! I’m finding it a real struggle to run after a day at work but will keep at it. Was supposed to do session 2 this morning but went for a good walk with my Sister and the woofer over Sandwell Valley.
Yesterday was my nephew’s 4th birthday and he had a party at a soft play centre. The good thing was that adults can go on it too so I spent the morning running after 4 year olds on the assault course and on the slides. It was ace. Tiring but great fun.
I also saw a few people that I hadn’t seen for a while at the party and they all commented on how well I looked. Which is fab ‘cos before when I was fatter they’d say that meaning ‘you’ve put weight on’ but now I know they mean ‘oh you’ve lost weight’ so that’s nice and reassuring that people can actually tell the difference.
We had a Chinese takeaway for Dinner so shared a portion of chicken chow mein with my Sister with a small handful of chips and a couple of triangles of sesame prawn toast. Actually found it rather greasy so won’t be in a hurry to have that again.
Am really hoping that the scales are nice to me on Tuesday, I know my body shape is changing even if the scales aren’t so that’s definitely a positive but am desperate to get into the next stone bracket and closer to my 5 stone total loss!
Hope you’re all enjoying a lovely Bank Holiday weekend and enjoy the lie in tomorrow (if you get one!)
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